How can I make myself better?

do you know that there's two "beings" in your head? your consciousness and your subconscious mind, which is more directly linked to the environment (and the supernatural). whenever you make plans that go against this subconscious current, they will fail, even if consciously you believe they make sense and are what you want. you need to go into yourself and discover what you truly want. when you discover that, there will no longer be any discord between your subconscious and conscious self, and you'll be able to fulfill your plans effortlessly.